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He left his Jaguar at Buchanan's and drove my convertible to his house. In the car, we barely acknowledged each other, except once, at a stop sign, he turned toward me and found my eyes in the gloom. I thought: You have Atlas toggle bracelet this one life. But with Russell behind the wheel of my car, the ramifications of that thought did not disturb me. No, I felt far larger than I actually was, more imposing than I'd ever dreamed myself to be, and I nearly said the words aloud. As if he sensed the urgency behind my placid face, Russell drove faster. Maybe he was terrified I would fling my door open at the next red light and simply disappear into the night air. I certainly considered that- in those days, I was under the spell of a secret self that Charm bracelet a twilight existence inside my brain, and I imagined that only the most elusive, ungovernable woman was capable of provoking a great love, a great hatred. I never spoke of this with anyone.

It was only ten, but the stooped brick houses in Russell's subdivision were already dark, unfamiliar. Empty hatchbacks and pickup trucks were neatly parked under his neighbors' spindly carports. Russell's thick green lawn glittered wetly under a spidery skin of moonlight. The black nodules of his sprinkler system clicked in the muggy air, and in one of the peeling river birches, a single nighthawk warbled. The bird swooped down, and I stood, as if poised for a flight of my own, and watched its feathery gray body shoot upward.

Inside, Russell mixed an Old-Fashioned while I perched on his sofa. The tubular metal furniture in the living room was precisely arranged, and on a glass coffee table was a faded picture of him and a small, black-haired boy in navy shorts and rubber flip-flops. A remote ocean sparkled behind them; the boy stood several feet from him. In the photo, Tiffany Cushion Toggle bracelet didn't have any silver in his hair.

He turned his glass around in his hand. The ice cubes clinked. "Would you like something to drink?"

"Cranberry juice, please."

"Cranberry juice?"

"If you don't have any, water is fine."

He delivered my juice in a slim blue glass that resembled the ones my mother had inherited from her mother. He sat down next to me and watched me drink,- my thirst pleased him. After my glass was empty, he placed it on the coffee table, and I patted him, lightly, on the knee. He leaned over and gently undid the top button of my dress, careful not to touch any skin. My fingers brushed against the gray hairs at one temple.